February was deep with uncompromising inner work. Learning a lot about who I am. It’s been hard, lonely, and profoundly transformative. A lot of tears. A lot of happiness and joy. A lot of grief and guilt. A lot of clarity. Amends made.
I faced everything I used to numb, encountered hurtful people without reacting, avoided every single shortcut with healing, and did not repeat a single toxic pattern from my past. That matters more than anything.
Today I am 53 days sober off everything, clear-headed, honest, living in integrity, and actually present in my body and life.
I am learning how to live inside a nervous system that I shut down for most of my adult life with drugs and alcohol, and even when it is very uncomfortable, it is real.
I am healthier, steadier, and more grounded than I have ever been. My circle is quiet by choice. No chaos. No manipulation. Boundaries with everyone and everything. No people who cost me my peace. The loneliness is clean, spacious, and earned.
This month changed the trajectory of my life in so many positive ways because I stayed.
I’m so grateful for those of you who stayed with me. Sending you all my love! 😍
My favorite song this month ❤️
