Tag: amends


  • My_Patterns_Are_Terrified_Of_Me_v1.zip

    Let me tell you a little story about a guy I used to know. Drunk. Psychotic. Angry. Drug fueled. The life of every party and the death of my mental health. In a two-year span of time, he attended 94 shows at the Wild Buffalo House of Music, high on drugs and alcohol every time.…

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  • Note_In_Empty_Bedroom_v1.zip

    3.5 years. Two hospitalizations. One note that said “Get help” on an empty bedroom door. This is the story of my estrangement from my daughters, what I had to burn down to become someone worth coming back to, and how I found my way back to them. This is not a highlight reel. This is…

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  • Bled_For_This_View_v1.zip

    Three days of real peace. Then Thursday happened and my nervous system decided to manufacture a full-blown crisis out of thin air. This is what it looks like when your rational mind is miles ahead and your body is still running trauma drills for a war that is already over. The view from up here…

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  • Honest_With_Myself_v1.zip

    I spent months grieving what I lost. Then one Tuesday the grief shifted into something I didn’t have a word for yet: bewilderment, and a deep, almost embarrassing “what was I tolerating?” I had been pouring everything into people, whether or not it ever came back, and calling it love when it was really fear.…

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  • Access_Denied_v1.zip

    There’s a moment in recovery where you stop making excuses for what you’re seeing. People from my past showed me who they are again, and I believed it, gave them nothing, and kept living my life out loud. Then I found the light at the end of the tunnel, and it was me.

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