Tag: solitude


  • Severed_v1.zip

    It costs nothing to choose less suffering for yourself, and it will cost you everything if you don’t. Today I made the hardest decision of my life, severing the last cord tied to a source of suffering I could not reduce any other way. I’m letting go so everyone on the other side of it…

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  • 43_And_Better_Off_Alone_MP4.zip

    I built an operating system named after myself, adopted a bison as a personality, A doctor also casually dropped the word cancer on me a month ago and then just moved on with her day, so I’m still waiting to find out if she meant it or was just testing my vocabulary. Happy birthday to…

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  • No_Rest_For_224_Days_MP4.zip

    9 months ago I burned every bridge in my life to the ground. I filmed this dance a few weeks ago on the Whatcom Creek bridge with a train crossing behind me the whole time. The post today is about what 224 days of not giving in actually looks like from the inside, and why…

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  • Relapsed_At_Midnight_MP4.zip

    Alone on the bridge over Whatcom Creek at midnight, the relapse happened. Thirty one years of buildup, no warning, nobody there to see it. I am not sorry, and honestly, I am proud of it.

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  • I_Gave_Up_MP4.zip

    Today I told someone I bought flowers for that the sunflower always faces the sun, a metaphor almost identical to that of the bison. Earlier this year, I deleted a song because it hurt too much to hear, then danced to it again and found out grief was never something you delete, only something you…

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