Tag: chemical sobriety


  • State_Trooper_Asked_Me_A_Question_v1.zip

    I have written a lot about what I burned down. The codependency. The enmeshment. The relationship decisions I kept making out of fear, not love. But here is the thing nobody really asks about: what survived? This is the inventory I never saw anyone else do. What the fire actually took. What it didn’t. What…

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  • You_Werent_Ever_The_Problem_v1.zip

    Awareness isn’t a step on the road to change. It is the entire road. Without it, you’re not on the road at all. You’re just in a field somewhere doing donuts in the dark. From peer support work to IFS parts work to a stormy Tuesday in Bellingham where I’m still processing a decision that…

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  • Unapologetically_Clean_Conscience_v1.zip

    I need to tell you what healing actually looks like. Not the version people post about. The quiet, unglamorous, random-Tuesday version. This one is about the clean conscience, the cockroach energy, the freedom, and a guy who woke up one day and couldn’t believe his own life.

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  • Always_Walked_Home_Alone_v1.zip

    I went downtown last night. On a Saturday and stayed out until 1am with a platonic love. Not a drop of alcohol. Not a hit of anything. 26 months sober from alcohol. 67 days clean from cannabis and everything else. I woke up this morning with a clear head, a healthy body, zero hangxiety, and…

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  • Ghosts_v1.zip

    Every city has a haunted house. Mine is all of downtown Bellingham. The bars, the alleys, the breakfast tables, the blocked contacts, the empty chairs. I changed my name, got sober, lost almost everyone I knew, and I still have to walk through all of it. Here’s what it looks like when your whole former…

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