Tag: shame


  • State_Trooper_Asked_Me_A_Question_v1.zip

    I have written a lot about what I burned down. The codependency. The enmeshment. The relationship decisions I kept making out of fear, not love. But here is the thing nobody really asks about: what survived? This is the inventory I never saw anyone else do. What the fire actually took. What it didn’t. What…

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  • Unapologetically_Clean_Conscience_v1.zip

    I need to tell you what healing actually looks like. Not the version people post about. The quiet, unglamorous, random-Tuesday version. This one is about the clean conscience, the cockroach energy, the freedom, and a guy who woke up one day and couldn’t believe his own life.

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  • Ghosts_v1.zip

    Every city has a haunted house. Mine is all of downtown Bellingham. The bars, the alleys, the breakfast tables, the blocked contacts, the empty chairs. I changed my name, got sober, lost almost everyone I knew, and I still have to walk through all of it. Here’s what it looks like when your whole former…

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  • My_Patterns_Are_Terrified_Of_Me_v1.zip

    Let me tell you a little story about a guy I used to know. Drunk. Psychotic. Angry. Drug fueled. The life of every party and the death of my mental health. In a two-year span of time, he attended 94 shows at the Wild Buffalo House of Music, high on drugs and alcohol every time.…

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  • Note_In_Empty_Bedroom_v1.zip

    3.5 years. Two hospitalizations. One note that said “Get help” on an empty bedroom door. This is the story of my estrangement from my daughters, what I had to burn down to become someone worth coming back to, and how I found my way back to them. This is not a highlight reel. This is…

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