Tag: autism


  • Good_Grief_v1.zip

    For years I thought refusing to accept my bipolar made me strong. It was denial, and underneath it was grief I didn’t want to feel. Acceptance isn’t quitting treatment. It’s quitting the fight against what’s permanent, whether that’s a diagnosis or a conflict that’s never going to change. Sometimes no response is a response. Good…

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  • Living_On_Purpose_v1.zip

    A random poster led me to a tarot reader, and she told me to start setting intentions. Severing the last cord already brought my sleep, my appetite, and my grief back online. Now it’s time to declare what I am living by from here forward. This is not an update. It is a declaration. Know…

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  • Severed_v1.zip

    It costs nothing to choose less suffering for yourself, and it will cost you everything if you don’t. Today I made the hardest decision of my life, severing the last cord tied to a source of suffering I could not reduce any other way. I’m letting go so everyone on the other side of it…

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  • No_Rest_For_224_Days_MP4.zip

    9 months ago I burned every bridge in my life to the ground. I filmed this dance a few weeks ago on the Whatcom Creek bridge with a train crossing behind me the whole time. The post today is about what 224 days of not giving in actually looks like from the inside, and why…

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  • Relapsed_At_Midnight_MP4.zip

    Alone on the bridge over Whatcom Creek at midnight, the relapse happened. Thirty one years of buildup, no warning, nobody there to see it. I am not sorry, and honestly, I am proud of it.

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