Tag: hypervigilance


  • No_Pill_For_This_v1.zip

    Half a joint ended 25 years of numbing. Then my nervous system came back online like a fire alarm, and my therapist and psychiatrist said there was no pill for it. 300 days of sobriety later I’m sleeping without meds, I’ve accepted a job offer, and I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Here’s everything I…

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  • Drunk_Nuclear_Plant_Operator_v1.zip

    286 days chemically sober, and the things I tell people in recovery every day: from the night I threw out my last joint to what emotional sobriety actually feels like.

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  • Living_On_Purpose_v1.zip

    A random poster led me to a tarot reader, and she told me to start setting intentions. Severing the last cord already brought my sleep, my appetite, and my grief back online. Now it’s time to declare what I am living by from here forward. This is not an update. It is a declaration. Know…

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  • Off_The_Radar_MP4.zip

    I went off the radar on September 20. I’m happy, sober, safe, and access to me is closed. I wish everyone involved less suffering and more peace. I’ll be finding mine, out of reach and out of view.

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  • Severed_v1.zip

    It costs nothing to choose less suffering for yourself, and it will cost you everything if you don’t. Today I made the hardest decision of my life, severing the last cord tied to a source of suffering I could not reduce any other way. I’m letting go so everyone on the other side of it…

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