Tag: loss


  • No_Pill_For_This_v1.zip

    Half a joint ended 25 years of numbing. Then my nervous system came back online like a fire alarm, and my therapist and psychiatrist said there was no pill for it. 300 days of sobriety later I’m sleeping without meds, I’ve accepted a job offer, and I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Here’s everything I…

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  • Hunting_Agates_Found_Closure_v1.zip

    Closure was never out there. After a year of begging people who hurt me for it, I found it on a beach. Here is how I stopped waiting and started healing myself.

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  • Sharp_As_A_Thumbnail_Scratch_v1.zip

    Grief used to be the thing I ran from. Now it shows up sharp as a thumbnail scratch, I say hello out loud, and it passes. Grief isn’t terrible. It’s proof I have a real beating heart.

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  • Good_Grief_v1.zip

    For years I thought refusing to accept my bipolar made me strong. It was denial, and underneath it was grief I didn’t want to feel. Acceptance isn’t quitting treatment. It’s quitting the fight against what’s permanent, whether that’s a diagnosis or a conflict that’s never going to change. Sometimes no response is a response. Good…

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  • August_Of_43200_Twitches_JPG_MP4.zip

    August was the month accountability stopped being a concept and became a daily habit. Five farmers markets, eighteen pier sunsets, two hundred sixty miles of walking, and 43,200 TMS pulses later, I held a boundary with people who had been increasing my suffering, did not flinch when they got angry, and came out the other…

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